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Well, that's that... [Sep. 24th, 2012|08:26 am]
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No, no baby yet.

But it seems like these last few weeks are going to be -really- hard on me, and now it's beyond frustrating. Last night, I discovered (after spending some time at my work desk, sewing) that simply using my sewing machine stretches a muscle in my pelvis that causes me to not even be able to walk without pain. You never really know how much you use certain muscles until you can't - last night, I literally had to shuffle, Igor-style, dragging my right foot behind me, across the living room and up the stairs to my bedroom because I simply could not raise my right foot/leg at all without excruciating pain through the right side of my abdomen.

So it looks like, for now, pretty much any of my major projects are going to be put on hold. I have a lot of stuff that I have yet to photograph as far as small items go, and I also have some accessories I can work on to finish by hand, but there's only so much I can do. Now, it's down to a waiting game. I don't want to over-work myself to the point where I'm simply unable to function enough to take care of myself, so I'm suspending most of my work from here on out. I guess I should be glad I've made it this far before having to "give up," as it were, but at this point I just want to get the last of it over with and be on the road to recovery.

Over the next week or so I might be adding a few new things to Etsy, things that have yet to be photographed or hand-finished, but other than that, I'm not going to be active as far as current work projects go, because I just can't spend the next three weeks dragging one foot behind me because it hurts too much. It's beyond frustrating, because there is SO much I want to get done, and just physically can't. :\

[User Picture]From: haikujaguar
2012-09-24 12:46 pm (UTC)
*passes sympathetic hot chocolate*

Consider it practice for the next 3-5 months. You won't remember them, you'll get so little rest. And you certainly won't be doing any work. The only thing I remember about the first half-year after giving birth was when relatives came over to spell me for a while, I thought "I could wor—zzzzzzzzzzz" and then I'd just pass out for six hours. :,
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[User Picture]From: crssafox
2012-09-24 01:57 pm (UTC)
The down sides to working from home! And with all of these projects staring me in the face. As I've told my husband, I'm so thankful that at least the baby is coming at the beginning of the fall season, the nights will only get longer from here on out so it will be easy to do the "sleep when the baby sleeps" routine. I have a hard time sleeping when there's daylight.

And it drives me up the wall, because September and October are usually very busy for my Etsy business, what with having costume accessories and all. I may "indulge" in some work after the baby arrives, because hubby will be taking roughly three weeks off of work, to help with packing and shipping.

Thankfully, I have a lot of stock ready to go, left over from the convention season earlier this year, so it won't require much work on my end. It's just a matter of getting it photographed, finishing details on some of them (which can be done by hand from the comfort of my couch with my feet up, thankfully) and putting the listings up. I also have to organize it in such a way that my husband will be able to pick and ship things for me if I need him to. That will be a chore in and of itself!
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[User Picture]From: haikujaguar
2012-09-25 12:46 am (UTC)
Ah, it's good to have it all organized! But seriously, be prepared to cut yourself a lot of slack. And to be disappointed that you can't get back to it all as fast as you want. I did do a little drawing/painting in the first year, but it was hard going and I went a little crazy for lack of work-time.

It has been worth it, though. What a crazy, amazing, wonderful, boggling, brain-and-spirit-exploding experience it is to be a parent. :)
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[User Picture]From: crssafox
2012-09-25 01:16 pm (UTC)
I guess I am trying to set expectations for myself, but not be too disappointed if I can't meet them, if that makes any sense. Baby steps, do what I can, and when I can. I have no idea what recovery is going to hold for me, but there are still small things I can do that don't take too much energy, until I do get that back. :)

And I have no doubt it will be worth it in the long run. I love reading about your adventures with your daughter, and particularly your experiences with getting into homeschooling. I would love to be able to do similar some day; Florida is just so full of history and nature and things to teach about, it will be so much fun to pass all that on some day!
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[User Picture]From: gilmorelion
2012-09-24 02:39 pm (UTC)
Hang in there sweetie. *hug* I wish I had your work ethic!
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[User Picture]From: crssafox
2012-09-25 01:13 pm (UTC)
My ethic has gone out the window with all of my energy! LOL!

And I keep missing your calls! :< Truth be told by the end of the day I am usually a slug and not good for much. XD Once I'm propped up in my pillow fort on the couch, I don't move at all. :D
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[User Picture]From: synnabar
2012-09-24 08:29 pm (UTC)
owowowowowow I remember that one-side-of-the-abdomen pain. I had that early on and had to give up wearing anything with a bit of a heel, and then again sometimes when I'd go from a low sitting position to standing and vice-versa (such as when getting into/sliding out of a low car). That was AWFUL, and I sympathize! Best wishes and lots of energy to you~~~~!
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[User Picture]From: crssafox
2012-09-25 01:12 pm (UTC)
I can see how heels would do that too, the position of the foot is kind of the same as using a sewing machine in how it makes you point your toe even ever so slightly. It's so crazy how just the smallest thing can cause a world of hurt when hormones are changing your body around!

I am just so thankful that the real aches and pains held off for a while, but it's frustrating to literally hit a wall and not be able to do the things you're used to. At least giving birth should be the "cure," even if there will be other changes...! ;)
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